The Art of endurance always comes under the scanner, especially when stakes are higher. Fine!!
Now what?
Well…. Let’s start with Legitimacy J Hope you won’t mind!!
Kewl!
Every relationship flourishes in a set pattern. Certainly effects are different and so the process as well but the basic pattern remains the same.
It starts like all rosy pictures….. Putting in Shaw’s words… “Romantic Boyhood”. Than it starts getting pace... acceleration... Things move fast and nice as well. It’s all like Schumaker way.
Than we mature in a relationship… things get serious and all.
It seems nice to read so clearly in a flash of 20 seconds.
But… (With an extra T)… What about pain? Endurance of pain? Desire of pain?
Now I’ve been branded as masochist. (Can you believe ? Me??).
Actually I am too demanding… I remember someone saying something which coincidently fits me as well.
“Someone who is vulnerable enough to let me protect him, and protective enough to let me be vulnerable.”
My scar is throbbing (I am not Potter boy and I don’t have any scar). Actually it’s my left temple… and it’s really so irritating.
Well one more thing that I want to make public is: I am quite flamboyant, extrovert and talkative. But when something hits me, some deep thoughts, I keep them for me. It’s very difficult to take those things out of me. I don’t share my pain, my regrets, my inability, my faults and my all personal grey shades.
It’s been more than 3 hours and I am writing this….
Sometimes I feel that I will never get what I want. May be my destiny, but do we play any role in deciding our destiny? Deciding is not working, what about choosing?
“Would you know my name if I saw you in heaven
Now what?
Well…. Let’s start with Legitimacy J Hope you won’t mind!!
Kewl!
Every relationship flourishes in a set pattern. Certainly effects are different and so the process as well but the basic pattern remains the same.
It starts like all rosy pictures….. Putting in Shaw’s words… “Romantic Boyhood”. Than it starts getting pace... acceleration... Things move fast and nice as well. It’s all like Schumaker way.
Than we mature in a relationship… things get serious and all.
It seems nice to read so clearly in a flash of 20 seconds.
But… (With an extra T)… What about pain? Endurance of pain? Desire of pain?
Now I’ve been branded as masochist. (Can you believe ? Me??).
Actually I am too demanding… I remember someone saying something which coincidently fits me as well.
“Someone who is vulnerable enough to let me protect him, and protective enough to let me be vulnerable.”
My scar is throbbing (I am not Potter boy and I don’t have any scar). Actually it’s my left temple… and it’s really so irritating.
Well one more thing that I want to make public is: I am quite flamboyant, extrovert and talkative. But when something hits me, some deep thoughts, I keep them for me. It’s very difficult to take those things out of me. I don’t share my pain, my regrets, my inability, my faults and my all personal grey shades.
It’s been more than 3 hours and I am writing this….
Sometimes I feel that I will never get what I want. May be my destiny, but do we play any role in deciding our destiny? Deciding is not working, what about choosing?
“Would you know my name if I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same if I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong Here in heaven”
These words are so apt for the time frame that I am just sinking in…
So, my angel!! Now it’s official. I don’t belong to heaven.
These words are so apt for the time frame that I am just sinking in…
So, my angel!! Now it’s official. I don’t belong to heaven.
I'll find my way, through night and day
Cause I know I just can't stay Here in heaven
Too many things happening. Panic button is still out of question. I can’t stop loving you, though how much deceptive I seem.
We should consider euthanasia!
I died here….
Too many things happening. Panic button is still out of question. I can’t stop loving you, though how much deceptive I seem.
We should consider euthanasia!
I died here….
I Love you!!
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PS: Whatever i write.. I am still an ardent critic of the idea of Suicide!!
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