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Welcome joy & welcome sorrow!
Come today & Come tomorrow!!

It has to start with both the notions present. I am trying hard not to remain confused… and embrace at least one of these beautiful feelings fully… Life has lots to show and make you wiser… The only difference is timing… what I am seeing now may become more painful in wrong times and can become sweeter in right times. Will it be just if I keep grudges against my life for all the pain I desired, or shall I be thankful towards my life to at least showing me the traits of life which no one can even aspire?? Aspiration!! One more vague word!! (Sometimes I wonder if we didn’t have these vague words… living would’ve been a real messy affair!)… So where was I? Lost track… Hmmm! So M, I want to say thanks, I want to say Love, I want to say Smile!! You have been a phenomenon in my life and I shan’t disgrace the value by thanking but I must respect the value by embracing. You’ll always be having a special place in my life…
We need to find out ourselves in order to establish the idea of freedom, being free… be able to fly…
Some or most of the times we weren’t told about the course we’re going to be flown in to, my idea of finding life may hurt me but I’d like to be assure of fact that it doesn’t hurt anybody else, At least, more than me.
18 days and 18 nights.. Simple mathematics 24x18= 432 Hrs. I was with you, physically, mentally, virtually. And I seize to believe (btw I don’t believe in coincidences). Even the coincidences aren’t behaving as coincidences in our case. I must not forget to mention some of the good books which I’d love you to read…
Tell me… Suggest please… How I don’t love you! How? Why? Can I be so selfish to love you without even thinking about your comfort zone? You know and I also know... no… precisely Not… Never!!
I hate it when things are beyond my control… I love myself, and I have my grudges against life… and I’m damn sure I’m going to give it back to life… Straight!


Madness... Sheer madness…. Nothing else it could be. Now the word that tops my hate list is “Legitimate”. I wish I could… but is every wish granted? I don’t know… But I have a strong desire that my wish comes true… We are yet to find a meter for love so I can tell you how much I love you, but I am sure what I feel about you… Well… When I don’t meet you, don’t talk to you… I feel a sense of incompleteness, I feel empty (??), See like today… you seem so away….. I hate being like that ….. I hate it… simple and plain.
Just a minute…Hang on!! What is the thing that drives our relationship…? Emotional quotient?? Physical proximity? Mental setup?
May be a converse of all… Driving force of relationships are the major forces which determines the course of a relationship.