How about a ripping feeling? Flashes of Curses flying past… Who knows which spell will hit whom? When I was a kid I never really liked the result days( though I was sure I won’t be getting less marks), They used to give me a hollow feeling in my stomach. As if Gravity is really “acting”. Time fled and I became more open to the idea of results, but the hollowness still stays and it’s really tough to pretend. I can sense a grim, a sudden chillness sweeping me around, like all happiness fading away, faces leaping ahead, shadows charging ahead. Trapped
Panic Button… still out of sight
Can we deceive ourselves that; if something is going away from you, you might not deserve it? Well… mere play of words, we can call it anything but the feeling stays same. Been kissed by Dementors
I maintained this since start and I really hate in being helpless condition. I must not glorify me being in love but yet the real meaning of love never stays in unification… It may but surely it stays in longings. Process is again the key word, Being right in the centre of process has the charm. Once the process ends we start longing for some other things. Humans are process oriented and we must understand this, we must not run behind results but we should remain in process. Process is again a vague term. What you call a process? A moment before result and after result is what? Penultimate process or Primitive process?
Expectations and commitment are said to be the root causes of pain. Are they?
May be… but one thing is definitely sure that lots of things will be clearer in some week time. We should give it some more time, as time is the only virtue which can perfectly measure the situation and come up with brilliant decisions.
Last some days have been like dream. Basically it’s all about letting you loose a bit on every nerves kind situation. The floating sensation that took me on flight was always. I daresay that the understanding level between every person is different and I find my wavelength with him is un-expectedly amazing! Last 4 days were like seeing me in different light. You’re away and the emptiness was always there but at the same time lots of things existed concurrently. How much insane you remain after following insane and tiresome path of existence is always under question.
Now I am in a different state of mind. After last week, a lot has changed specially on my mental backdrop. But on my practical front approximately nothing has changed.
Hell it took me at least 10 days to update this page. Why? I was so busy that I really ignored it. May be the belief of updating it anyway was the cause behind this delay.
Anyway Lots of things happening and I can sense the old grim coming. Why is it always that people who seem to “care” about you tend to impose their thoughts on you? Can’t this care come naturally or the way one is?
Paradoxes …. Indeed … they do exist... Isn’t it?
Every one who is having a “voiced” say about my life seems to have lost the meaning of Individual existence.
Fine… I may be not happy but yet I don’t want any of lots to try for my happiness, if it’s there I’ll get that.
Zig- zag.. A maze ..we must fall in to trap.
Panic Button… still out of sight
Can we deceive ourselves that; if something is going away from you, you might not deserve it? Well… mere play of words, we can call it anything but the feeling stays same. Been kissed by Dementors
I maintained this since start and I really hate in being helpless condition. I must not glorify me being in love but yet the real meaning of love never stays in unification… It may but surely it stays in longings. Process is again the key word, Being right in the centre of process has the charm. Once the process ends we start longing for some other things. Humans are process oriented and we must understand this, we must not run behind results but we should remain in process. Process is again a vague term. What you call a process? A moment before result and after result is what? Penultimate process or Primitive process?
Expectations and commitment are said to be the root causes of pain. Are they?
May be… but one thing is definitely sure that lots of things will be clearer in some week time. We should give it some more time, as time is the only virtue which can perfectly measure the situation and come up with brilliant decisions.
Last some days have been like dream. Basically it’s all about letting you loose a bit on every nerves kind situation. The floating sensation that took me on flight was always. I daresay that the understanding level between every person is different and I find my wavelength with him is un-expectedly amazing! Last 4 days were like seeing me in different light. You’re away and the emptiness was always there but at the same time lots of things existed concurrently. How much insane you remain after following insane and tiresome path of existence is always under question.
Now I am in a different state of mind. After last week, a lot has changed specially on my mental backdrop. But on my practical front approximately nothing has changed.
Hell it took me at least 10 days to update this page. Why? I was so busy that I really ignored it. May be the belief of updating it anyway was the cause behind this delay.
Anyway Lots of things happening and I can sense the old grim coming. Why is it always that people who seem to “care” about you tend to impose their thoughts on you? Can’t this care come naturally or the way one is?
Paradoxes …. Indeed … they do exist... Isn’t it?
Every one who is having a “voiced” say about my life seems to have lost the meaning of Individual existence.
Fine… I may be not happy but yet I don’t want any of lots to try for my happiness, if it’s there I’ll get that.
Zig- zag.. A maze ..we must fall in to trap.
